Remembrance

Today a lot of people are reflecting on where they were and what they were doing 10 years ago.  Some might say they don't want to hear it but I think it is wonderful that, if for only one day, we are all on the same page and are banding together!I am not going to go into exactly where I was or what I was doing but I am sure my story has similarities to all of yours, I sat in shock wondering what this all meant and crying and praying for those people going through those 102 awful minutes.

I actually started reflecting a couple of days ago.  I was one of the 1.4 million people without power on California.  On the radio station they mentioned it being a terrorist attack.  They said some terrorist severed the line between Arizona and California and therefore, we would be without power for a very long time.  At that moment, it went from your average power outage to a full blown "what the heck does this mean?!" moment.  I went from being excited to not have tv, live by candle light and spend good quality time with my girls to being absolutely terrified.  Where should I go, what should I do?  Do I need to drive somewhere safer, but what place would be safer?  I remember thinking, if I am this terrified sitting in the comfort of my home surrounded by my family, I cannot imagine what it was like being inside a burning building, watching the building right next to yours crumble to the ground knowing it was probably going to happen to yours.  You are alone, your family is not there to comfort you and you are scared......terribly scared!!!  I don't know what I would be doing.  I would hope to have enough strength to get on my knees and pray to God, to find a phone and make sure to make one last call to let my loved ones know how much they meant to me and how I would be there with them, watching over them for the rest of their lives.  Or would I take it all into my own hands, not wait for the building to take me, to end it all.  This picture still haunts me 10 years later.

This picture gets me for numerous reasons.  First, this poor man had to be absolutely terrified, no one in their right mind would jump out of a huge building unless they felt it to be a better option.  Not only that, but he looks so peaceful, almost as if he has come to terms with his fate.  Is he praying, thinking of his family, what he did with his life.  No one knows, there is even speculation on who exactly he is.  This picture just haunts me and puts it all into perspective.  When you see the buildings coming down, you see buildings coming down, you know there are people inside but you see a building.  I guess seeing an actual man who was int he building, falling like the towers did soon after gets me.  I hope we can all remember this unity we feel and share far past this date!  We may not always agree, but we are still mothers, father, sisters, brothers, friends, we all have people who think we are special and we are all special.  God did not create us to hate.  And please remember to pray for our country and everyone in it far past today as well.  Prayer is a mighty thing and brings joy to others and joy within oneself.  God Bless you all and God Bless America!!!

Power Of Prayer

How many people have had something happen to them  in a physical nature and prayed for God to heal them and had it happen?  I know many a people out there in the blog world may not be Christians and may not believe in the healing power of God but hopefully reading this will impact someone in such a way that they may pick up that dusty book in their drawer called the Bible and read how awesome our God is! 

I haven't posted a lot about my medical issues I have been dealing with lately but it has had me enduring numerous tests and on different meds.  Nothing thus far has turned up and no meds have really helped.  I like to think that I am a good Christian girl but it seems with everything going on lately I have not taken the time to sit down and pray.  Not for me and not for others and that is not a good thing.  I normally have a routine and have not been sticking to it as of late.  But this whole time I have been dealing with my issues I have had that sense that something was telling me to pray to God.  Instead of looking to my doctors, look to the ultimate healer.  And trust me, I have given things to God before and asked for things and they haven't happened.  In those moments I don't think that He is ignoring me, I know He hears but He also knows what is best for me, what will make me stronger in Him.  But a couple of days ago I started praying that God would heal me.  That whatever is going on, He would heal me so that I could live a normal life, being able to be the best mom to my kids that I can be, because with my ailments, there are times I have had to "check out" of the whole mommy duties.  And I can honestly say that since I have been handing it over to God, I have not had any of the feelings I have had before.  That is not to say that they wont come back r that God wants these to go away to make room for something else, but as of now, I am feeling amazing!!!  Many people who don't believe can chalk it up to anything medical.  Maybe something in my body chemistry has changed, maybe I have done something else with my lifestyle to make that change.  But I know the real reason. I prayed to an amazing God and He had been waiting for me to call upon Him.  To seek out His medical advice.  Our God is an amazing God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I pray that if you have a personal relationship with God that you nuture it and care for it.  And for those of you who may not have that relationship, I pray that one day you will.  That whatever is holding you back will not defeat you and you will give in and listen, He can change your life!!!!!