Birthdays

This was a rough week. Wednesday was my brother Justin's birthday and if he was still with us, he would have been 34. I ended up going over to his house to see Brandi, Kayla and his mom Sandi. His friend Jason came over as well and we all headed down to the Huntington pier. Brandi brought some roses from the garden and Sandi had bought Hawaiian lei's. We put the flowers in the water for him, in the spot where his ashes we spread. It was just too much to handle. Seeing Sandi looking out into the water where Justin used to surf and hearing Brandi cry for her husband, it just isn't fair!!!! He needs to be here with us, be a son to his mother, a husband and a daddy. After we were done on the pier we ate at Dukes and then had cake back at the house. It was a beautiful and sad day all in one. I was very blessed to be there and also had a good time with Sandi as well. Then on Friday it was my moms birthday which was a lot happier of a day. We all went out to her work, yes, Will too, he had the day off. We took her out to Olive Garden which was yummy however, they had something wrong with their thickening agent they said so nothing that had any type of cream sauce on it could be ordered. I wanted my chicken and gnocchi dang it!!!!! We also forgot her present at home like a dunce. Good thing I see her on Wednesday, after I get my hair done, woo hoo!!!!!!

A Great Weekend

This weekend turned out to be a very good one. On Saturday, we all met my mom at the Irvine Spectrum. She hadn't actually been there and had the chance to walk around and we love it so we all met down there. We had some lunch and then did a bit of shopping. I found my dress for Erin's wedding, thanks mom, and so all I need now are shoes, woo hoo for shoe shopping!!!! The girls also got to ride the ferris wheel with daddy, they love that dang thing, unlike me, lol. After we left there, we headed back home so I could get ready for Erin's bachelorette party at the house. It was a surprise so I was pretty excited..............and then nobody showed up :( I don't know her new friends, I mean gosh, I haven't lived here in almost 7 years so I was relying on people I don't know to come. And they said they would but of course did not show up. Not a good first impression. So, it turned out to be just me, Erin, Bre and Allie. It was pretty nice, we had a Passion party consultant come and since it was just us, we talked about high school and all of our fun memories, I have really missed my friends!!!! I did however drink a little much so later on that night and the following morning were not fun at all. I felt so old, I definitely did not spring back as quickly as I used to, lol. After we all got ready on Sunday, we headed out to Corona to my grandparents house to have Fathers Day and celebrate my Papa's birthday. My cousin Brooke and her mom Connie were there visiting from North Carolina, I hadn't seen them in probably 5 or 6 years and it was so good to see them!!!! Now all I need to see is Renee and it will all be better :) Will is off this week so I hopefully will have a ton of help with the girlies and get to relax some..............lol.

Doctors Appointments

Both Hayley and I had doctors appointments this last week. Hayley had her cardiology appointment. When she was born they heard a heart murmur, it seemed to stay or get stronger with each appointment, and right after she was born we seemed to have an appointment every other day since she was considered failure to thrive. When she was admitted, they told me they wanted me to make a cardio appointment. I did, but it was not until this last week (of course you cant get a quick appointment). And on top of that, it was half-way to San Diego, luckily Cassidy was out of school so I didn't have to worry about her as well. Besides the major accident that shut the freeway down and made us almost an hour late, the appointment went well. Hayley weighed in at 12 pounds 5 ounces, that's my girl :) She is showing them the whole failure to thrive was just a little joke on her part. She definitely is filling in nicely :) The doc told me that she has peripheral pulmonary stinosis, I know I spelled that completely wrong. But, in other words, her pulmonary artery is narrowed by the surrounding tissue which makes it harder for blood to flow through, which causes the murmur. He said to treat her like any other normal little girl but that he wants to see us back in December to look at it again. She was a trooper the whole time, even when they had the cords hooked up to her, she was all smiles :) Then the following day I had my appointment. It was my third doc I have had here so far and I think I am keeping this one, he seems normal. I had him check my moles, I was worried about one of them. He said they all look normal but if any bothered me at all, that he could take them off. One under my arm that is pretty big has always bothered me so I asked him to do that one. He did it with liquid nitrogen. When he put it in the cup, it started steaming and sizzling, not sounding too good to me, lol. Then he got a small q-tip to put in the middle. Saying he "put it in the middle" is a nice way of saying, he burned the hell out of my arm!!!!! After he got done with the small one, he grabbed an extra large one and proceeded to burn the rest and a surrounding area. It is 2 days later and I have an enormous blister surrounding my mole and the blister is surrounded in a 5 inch diameter by a large white puffy skin thing. So gross. It doesn't hurt today though, the first day it felt like someone was singing off my arm!!!! He asked if I wanted any more done and thank God I said no, lol. I will keep you posted in December on how Hayley is doing.

Last Day Of School

How did I get such a grown little girl? Today is Cassidy's last day of first grade. I still find it hard to believe that she is even in first grade, let alone done with it and heading to second soon. She got to wear her special shirt today. Her teacher made them all shirts with a class pic on it and had everyone sign it. On the back it says "Wild Things 08-09". On the board outside of her classroom, she had zebra stripes and all the kids pics of them doing like lion roars and things, she called her class the "wild things", it is so cute to see all the kids doing their faces, lol. I got all choked up taking her to school this morning too. She was fine and so excited and I was so sad, I hate good-byes, lol, even when they aren't mine. And this is actually the first time she has had an official last day of school. When she was in Pre-school, we moved from Virginia to Illinois so she didn't get to finish her year there and then last year for Kindergarten, we came out here to see my brother and didn't get back until after school was out. So, now that she will be home all summer, I better find some fun things to do or I think I will be hearing how bored she is, lol. She already asked me if we could use all the money we get back from the school to go somewhere really fun. What money?!! Hahahahaha. She is so funny.

She's Growing Up Too Fast

Tomorrow starts the last week of first grade for Cassidy. I don't know why I am so sad. It just seems like she is growing up so fast!!! I can actually vividly remember second grade and beyond and she is at that age now. I remember bits and pieces of first grade but second grade, I remember a lot. That's also where I met my friend Kristina and we are still good friends today. I remember doing The Little Mermaid play with her in front of our class, I was Ariel and she was Ursula :) And sleepovers. She actually told me the other day she had been invited to a sleepover!!! I know she is getting older but I don't even let her play outside by herself let alone let her go to a strangers house. I told Will and his exact words were "Oh hell no", but I told Cassidy as long as she gets an invitation and I can go see this girls parents ahead of time then she might be able to go. I really don't think I am wanting to let my little girl grow up!!!!!!!! Life flies by way too fast sometimes!

Hayley Update

Hayley had her 2 month check-up today and it went well. She has definitely gained the weight she had lost and then some. She is now 11 pounds and 2 ounces. I knew she had gained some weight, I can see it in her sweet little double chin and she is getting some chunk to her thighs as well. She is such an amazing and sweet little girl!!! She did have to get some shots today which is never fun, I feel so bad. And I am so on the fence about getting immunizations at all. I know my kids need them so they don't get sick and possibly die from some horrid disease however, I am so nervous about the side effects. I have seen and read a lot that Jenny McCarthy has put out and it is so scary. I hate having to make the decision on whether to give my kids something that is good and bad all at the same time. Who knew parenting came with such responsibility? No one tells you about these kinds of things before you have babies :)