Monday, November 30, 2009

Honesty


Yay, 2 blogs in one day........................thanks Launa :) After I blog I normally go to see what my friends have been up to and now I am back to blogging thanks to Launa :) hehe. So, here it goes:


Here are the rules:


1. Thank the person who gave you the award and a link to their blog.

2. Share 10 honest things about yourself.

3. Present this award to 5 others whose blogs you find brilliant in design and content.

4. Tell those 5 people they have been awarded.


Ok..................


1. I have no idea who I am these days. I have volunteered my time in so many different directions that I think I may have lost myself in them. I don't feel like the true me is in any of these activities and that's probably because none of them are for me, lol.


2. I miss my brother every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I love him and miss him so much that the pain is too much to handle and so I haven't dealt with it. I have this constant knot in my stomach that aches even when I hear his name. I am afraid of what might happen if I let it all go and actually deal with it.


3. I am nutty. I fall down, don't understand some jokes, have weird sayings that make complete sense to me and somehow sound like I am from Minnesota sometimes when I have never even been there. I have never had a broken bone but that in itself is a miracle. How many times can one hit their head without causing serious brain injury?!!!!! I know the day will come when my kids are embarrassed by me but for now they think I am the coolest mom ever :)


4. I hate my body. Lets not get into my past with this one, lets just be here right now. I have gained so much weight and am so unhappy with it. Today is my day 1 of my diet and exercise regimen. My goal is Vegas in March and I hope to make it, I know I will be much happier with myself then!!!!


5. I love the beach but am scared of the things that live in the water :) I love watching surfers surf and sitting on the sand. But I just picture me going out into the water and having something alive touch my leg, it just freaks me out.


6. And while we are on the "that freaks me out" stuff (God help me I have waaayyyy more than this), I am scared to death of flying. I have flown to Norway and Hawaii as a kid and then Chicago 7 years ago. That was enough to deter me for life. Will wonders how we will travel and see the world, which I want to do as well, and I don't see why we cant do it by a cruise? Then again, big waves tossing a boat around freak me out, whats the name of that movie that has the boat get caught in a huge wave and turned over and everyone but like 3 people dies? Maybe this one should be that I am paranoid of a lot of things. :)


7. I feel like an awful friend!!!! I have the best intentions of calling people, however #1 has me caught up and at the end of the day, I feel like I have failed my friends. I think of them a lot and want to be there for them but never truly reach out the way my heart is aching to. And I don't tell them so they think I just never call and don't care. But if you are a friend of mine, you are that for a reason. I love and care for you so deeply......and hopefully I can get better at showing it to you.


8. I want to go back to work and be a clinical psychologist. I think it would be amazing to work at a mental institute and try to get into the brains of people who don't think normally. This thought freaks Will out every time I bring it up :)


9. I feel like I am just now getting into my "mom groove". I think I have figured out what works and what doesn't. I feel like life at home with the kids is finely starting to go smoother than ever before and that maybe they think I am nice mommy again and not completely off my rocker :)


10. I am scared to death for Cassidy's future as a person with Epilepsy. There is so much that can trigger a seizure and I just picture her away at school staying up late and forgetting to take her meds and then having a massive seizure. My kids being hurt ( and I am sure every mom will agree) is one thing that I just cant handle. I want to wrap her up in my arms and have her live in my mommy bubble where she is safe for the rest of her life. I think it will take me a lot to get to the point of letting her do things alone.


Ok, so there's my honesty :) Thank you Launa for being amazing and doing this first............and then loving ti so much you had em do it, lol. Here is my list of those who I think should do it :)


1. Sheila Stevens: spookystevens.livejournal.com

2. Katie Getz: glimpseofgetz.blogspot.com

3. Kristin Bozarth: bozarthfamily.blogspot.com

4. Matt Stevens: mattstevens7.livejournal.com

5. Rachel Hall: rhall.blogspot.com

Really?!!!!!


I am not sure if I want to laugh or curl up in the fetal position and cry. Yesterday was some kind of day!!! Kendall wasn't feeling that good so I decided I was going to stay home with her and Hayley while Will went to church with Css and one of the Marines we had over for Thanksgiving. About 5 minutes before he was going to leave I decided to be brilliant and put up our Christmas tree. we have a pretty pre-lit one and it is easy to put together. And then Kndall and I could decorate while daddy was gone, she was pretty upset she couldn't go to church. So, I pull the bottom part of the tree out of the bag and look around at where to put it. I decided on the chair by the window, that way it wasn't on the floor and in the way, so I put it on the chair and I hear a crash and cracking noises coming from the window. How the heck could I forget that the bottom of the tree has a pole so that you could put it in the base?!!!! So, my tree went thru the window. I yelled for Will and he came down. I made him promise not to be mad (which he never does because he knows better when I say that, lol) and I told him and he kind of laughed because I think he thought it was a joke and I wasn't that much of a moron. And then he heard more cracking. I am kind of giggling about it now but I am sure I wont when we get the bill. Christmas was already tight.....I don't know what we will do. Then, Will was going to finish putting up the lights on the house. He had started the night before but when we plugged them in, a small part wasn't working. So, he decided to finish the next day. So he got back up on the roof and plugged away for quite a long time. After he was finished and was happy, he went to plug them in and it went on for a second...........and then they all went out. Now none are working. He is going to look at them today but I am sure he blew them all out :( Oh, and the tree isn't lighting up either. So, if that wasn't enough to squeeze into one day, I decided to make a london broil for dinner. It had been in the oven for a while when I pulled it out to check if it was done. It still needed a while more so I put it back in. About a minute later we heard a boom sound and smoke started pouring out of the oven. I opened it up and Will thought it was just bubbling over but the juice from the meat was coming from under the meat..............my pan had exploded!!!!! 2 seconds later all the smoke alarms in the house were going off and Will took the girls outside since the smoke was really bad. And the thing is, I had seen a recall about corningware and how the ones made after a certain date were exploding because they weren't heat resistant and some peoples ovens even almost exploded with the force of the blast. And I thought to myself "that sucks for those people"....................I guess it was a welcome to the club, lol. Needless to say it was one of those days. Lets hope today is better!!!!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

What a blessed Thanksgiving!!!!!


This Thanksgiving we adopted 2 Marines from the school of infantry. We ended up getting 2 amazing young men named Steve and Sal. Steve is 20 and from a small town in Indiana and Sal is 18 and from Illinois. They were both very respectful and loved playing with the girls. The thing that got me though was when I asked Steve if he had a church he goes to out here. Since he got to the house he had been talking about being baptized and his faith so I wanted to ask. He said he had been going to the one on base but he would love to go with us. He then said that his family had been praying for 2 weeks that he would find a good Christian family to spend Thanksgiving with, so it meant a lot to have us welcome him in to our family. I was in tears!!!!!! His family had been praying and we were the answer to prayer, I don't think I have ever been told that I was an answer to prayer!!!! So amazing!!! So, tomorrow Sal is coming with us and Steve said probably next weekend because he has a friend whose grandparents are coming in for the weekend and they are going to the base chapel. God works wonders and it made em feel so blessed. And then on Friday I had a black Friday lunch with both my Aunts, my cousin Jessica and one of my Aunts friends. And later that night we went over to my Aunts for a Thanksgiving part 2 :) It was a great night as well!!!!!

Nothing new is going on with my medical issues unfortunately. I was finally able to get a doctors appointment (like he said he wanted in the first place) after getting the run around but the appointment was pointless. He looked in my throat and saw they were still there and put in a consult for the ENT clinic. He said they would call within 10 days and if I didn't hear by then to call them. I think I will call them anyway on Monday :) So, nothing has really changed with that one, thank you all for the prayers though, it means so much to me. I am so emotional these days with all that is going on, I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life!!!! And if you are reading this....you are one of them :)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Camping at the beach


This weekend we went camping with my dads side of the family. We didn't end up having to go far since it was on the base beach but it was sooo pretty and so much fun!!!!! The girls always have fun going camping and being around family. And I got to meet my Aunts best friend Molly who knew me as a baby I guess. She said she remembered me in my infant carrier with my mom, so funny. She was so sweet though and the girls took to her right away as well and fought for attention of course. And while we were there Hayley's first tooth came in, she is growing up way too fast!!!!!! We also decided to bring Minnnie down for the day on Saturday, we were a little apprehensive since she is still in puppy mode and acts like a spaz most of the time but she did awesome.

No news on my medical stuff. However, a new symptom has arrived and it comes in the form of not breathing. It seems like I lose my breath and my throat closes quite a lot now, it is really scary. So, hopefully I will be seen soon and they can get to the bottom of this.
And just a side note, the above picture is not from this weekend, it was taken over the summer. I am still trying to catch up on the pictures so I can get more posted :) But it fits nicely, so you can always pretend I inserted a recent picture :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

A Wedding and a doctors visit


Yesterday my friend Kristi whom I have known for 20 years, which makes me feel really old by the way, got married!!! It was really pretty and her mom rented a stretch hummer to take us to dinner at the Chart House. The food was amazing by the way, you could cut the steak with a spoon it was so tender!!! The bride and groom looked amazing it was just a very special time!!!!


On to another note, I had a doctors appointment today. I have had a lump on the back of my throat for almost a month now and within the last few days I have had another one come up under my chin. Last week I went in to have them check it and they took a swab of it which came back negative so I had to go back in today. The doctor looked at it and determined he had no clue what it was and was very concerned. He did some blood work and wants me back no later than next week. I was ok until I talked to Will and then I basically broke down. I don't think I am scared that this is life threatening but I am very nervous it is something serious that would involve a lot of treatment. I don't know, it is just never comforting to have a doctor not know and be worried. The doctor should never be the one worried, lol. So, prayers would be really nice. I feel weird asking for prayer for me, I feel almost selfish for asking, lol, but it would be nice :) And I will keep you posted on what happens when I find out :)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

The Best Ever!!!!!!!


Ok, so the last week has been horrible. I feel like I have had no time for anything, I am constantly running around and my plate is overflowing. And to be honest I have no one to blame but myself. I just cant say no to anyone for any reason so if you ask, I will accomplish what you need. And it gets me in trouble from time to time and now is one of those times. However, a much needed break came on Monday night and it came in the form of dance!!!!! My aunt got 2 tickets to So You Think You Can Dance a couple of months ago and Monday was the night. It was so much fun and I got to see the amazing Kupono up close and personal. I love my husband so don't get this next sentence wrong, but I love that man!!!!!!! Not to mention that I don't think he likes girls so Will is completely ok with this :) Al of the dancers were amazing, how do they make it seem effortless? They would jump 10 feet in the air and it was like they had a trampoline under them. And the flexibility on those girls?!! I don't ever remember being able to do any of that, hahahaha. After all was said and done, we got to go down to the lounge and hang out with all of them, hello, we got to hang out with them!!!!!!!! And as soon as my aunt said "I think I see Kupono".....well, enough said, I am sure you know where I headed :) And the best thing, he was the absolute nicest guy ever. He talked with me and didn't make em feel like I was a burden or just another fan. And he hugged me, yes, a nice long friendly hug that made me all giddy (ok, enough of that because I know I sound like a love crazed teenage girl when I am actually a married mom of three). But for one more ecstatic moment let me say................KUPONO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, also as we were there I got to see Mary Murphy, she was actually watching the show with all of us there and when we were standing outside the theater afterwards, Nigel Lythgoe came strolling by and I managed to get a picture and quick word with him before anyone else recognized and swarmed him, and not that he will ever be interested enough to read this, not to mention he has no idea who I am, but I would like to apologize if in any way I caused a mob scene by stopping you and taking a picture. As soon as the flash went off it was like piranhas on a helpless guppy. Alright, so that was my night. I am now back to reality and right about now I hear a certain 7 month old who just woke from her nap, time to go snuggle :)

Monday, November 2, 2009

Happy Halloween......and birthday :)


This last weekend was so much fun!!!! On Friday night my Aunt church had what they call Mega Night. They had tons of those big jumpy things and food and games, it was a lot of fun, and the girls got to get dressed up in their costumes which is always fun! After we got done there we went back to my Aunts new apartment, which is amazing by the way, and we watched the Disneyland fireworks!! You can see them from her living room window, it is so cool!!!! Then of course Saturday was Halloween. We carved pumpkins ( I know, a little late on that one) and then my mom came down and took the girls trick or treating along with Will. My mom even dressed up as a witch, it was fun!!!!! Then on Sunday we celebrated Wills birthday since he had been gone for it. He got chocolate chip banana pancakes for breakfast with maple bacon on the side and pizza, beer, and German chocolate cake for dinner/dessert. It was kind of low key but he said he loved just being home with us, so hopefully it was the best birthday ever :)
By the way, I know the pictures don't match the blogs :) I am such a slacker when it comes to uploading pictures so I figured I would just post any pictures, any picture is better than no picture right?
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